September 2020

I have started my maternity leave this month. In Germany that is 6 weeks before estimated delivery date and 8 weeks after. I plan to take almost a year off as I expect to have a lot to do with two kids. Also, since corona-times started I try to plan for the worst case scenario - no safe childcare options. I am more of a skeptic than optimist comparing how long our lifestyle will be significantly influenced by new reality. Sometimes it makes me feel like I am the crazy fish in the water but I have a life time of experience in being in some way or the other an outsider so that don't bother me much (here in my head I hear Shania Twain 'That don't impress me much').

My psychological therapy goal went astray this month and I have finished only one book from many half read laying on my nightstand. My mind was scattered in search for material that will help me cope with my quite shaky self image, and I was spending more time on amazon in search for new books instead of reading those I've already had.

BOOKS

'Mindset' by Dr Carol S. Dweck

This book was great to think about fixed versus growth mindset. It gives so many examples that surely most of people can find themselves out there. We all are a mixture of growth and fixed mindset and knowing when which come to lead out actions and thoughts can help us GROW... I found it useful as a woman on a job market, a mother and a wife.

My mindset is definitely improving thanks to the time spend contemplating my inner dialogs while reading this book.