January 2021

 I have turned 34. I've got a painting from my husband and I am super excited about it. 

I bought plenty of painting gear and I follow step-by-step tutorials to learn basics of acrylics. They quite smelly but I have some creative outlet as at the moment with an infant and 3,5 year old at home in lockdown I have no brain power to work on my book projects. But I keep on gathering ideas... there might never be a perfect time and I am not waiting for such. I am just waiting for a slightly better times ;) I have not been very persistent with my exercising plans but the moment my older child will sleep consistently well I hope to have enough energy to will myself to train. As I said I just need slightly better times...

I am on a quest of healing my mind. And my to-read list is full of books that I hope will help me heal and grow. It is very challenging process but I rather go through it that regret that I didn't.

BOOKS

'The Gifts of Imperfection' by Brene Brown

I liked it! I learned a lot. I hope to have some time to one day process my notes. It is a book about feelings and what they mean and how to understand them.

 

'Braving the Wilderness' by Brene Brown

This was good but as I am not a citizen of USA some parts of it were not as important to me as maybe they were for those that are. No matter what one always can learn a lot from Brown. She just writes books that makes one feel welcomed and cared for.

'Scattered Minds: The Origins and Healing of ATTENTION DEFICIT DISORDER' by Gabor Mate

This book is among most important books I read so far in my life. I needed this knowledge and it set me on the quest of digging more into my psyche. It is book filled with wisdom.

Fit_Again WEEK 1 - building new habit

FAAP - Fit Again After Pregnancy

Part 2

So... I have been pregnant and I have gained more than I should have... (loosing-weight-after-pregnancy)

Now my two month break ends at the time of the new year's resolutions... but we all know how they end... I also checked my last years calendar to remind myself how badly I did (at least this year there was a omnipresent excuse COVID-19).

My plan is to exercise everyday when my two kids are sleeping.

So here is my week 1 update:

At midnight on New Years Eve (how desperate! I know..., but I was home and to tell the truth I hardly made it awake until midnight so I could jump into the new year with my husband as we do every year...) my husband has put my indoor sport shoes next to my elliptic (cross trainer). From that I knew it is ON for real...

On the first of January I went on elliptic for approx. 5 seconds I even haven't bothered to put my training shoes on and I had to motivate myself with vegan almond magnum... believe me it was necessary. Despite how it looks I counted it as a success. 

On 2nd and 3rd January I did better I actually did 10 min (I stopped exhausted but proud) while listening to audiobook ('Emma' by Jane Austen). But I devoured half a package of potato chips shamelessly on the 2nd but on the 3rd I felt a bit bad about it (apparently not serious enough to make me stop). I did put on my training shoes but other than that I was sporting my 'tired mom' outfit.

 I also went for a walk all 3 days. That counts.

OK, so far so good... plenty of place for improvement but I started.