November Favorites

November has passed so fast that I almost haven't realized it was there. I am glad for that because if one do not make oneself very busy it is easy to get autumn blues.

MOVIE

I was waiting for this movie longer than sane people should wait for any movie... I saw it twice in theaters and I absolutely loved it!

I am of course talking about INTERSTELLAR.

Movie is full of physics, feelings and psychology.
It beautifully shows a sacrifice that great explorers must make to discover the unknown. Breathtaking.

And who cares that in the end they break a bit of laws of nature :p

BOOK

I was only reading science stuff this month... 
And I am not sure if I would recommend books I was reading to anyone...

Maybe let me put it that way:
if you ever would decide to get to know Supersymmetry (beautiful theory in physics, that tries to explain more than the Standard Model does) then do not start from "Supersymmetry and supergravity" by Wess and Bagger. It is a classic but unless you are math oriented it will be a nightmare to go through. 
I have decided to start from "Supersymmetry DeMYSTiFieD" by Patrick Labelle. It is much more useful that Quantum Field Theory from the same DeMYSTiFieD series, but I do not find it perfect...
Anyway...
Supersymmetry is worth the struggle but the struggle is definitely there ;P

MAKE-UP

Definitely a blush and eye-shadow from Body Shop that since I bought them I wear whenever I go out.
The Blush - 01 all-in-one cheek color shade: macaroon - my first blush in very long time and I like how it makes me look healthy and fresh. Not that I mind looking pale and sick but it is a nice change when going out :)
The Eyeshadow - 01 eye color shade: copper!
A very sweet shop assistant recommended it for my skin tone and I think he was right.
I wanted something that you can put on eye lids and it looks good without any effort.
My make up skills are very poor and making something like a smokey eye surpass them ...

Anyway, I think this eye shadow is very beautiful, it is easy to put on with basic brush and it adds a bit of glam to a natural look. Thank you Body Shop for releasing me from learning advanced make-up tricks that I would rarely use ;)

EVENT

I went with a surprise visit to my parents, because my mum had birthday!
I took a train.
I had a half a day in Berlin thanks to that trip. 

I took a long walk ... a bit longer than expected... to have a cup of coffee with a friend and then continued to my hometown Szczecin.

It was a perfect family time.
 It loaded my batteries with extra energy that still helps me to survive those grey, cold and windy fall days.

...

One day when I went out for a walk I smelled winter in the wind.
There is this bite in the air that one cannot ignore.
The winter has arrived!

Happy December everyone :)

Thesis writing - sanity status

I was writing and writing and I got trapped...

My life, the real and beautiful world is just behind those thin walls around me, as thin as a cover of a comic Book but so impossible to get through them...

...life is so unrealistic and time passes in a mysterious way...

Even if I somehow manage to teleport myself to the real world I seem to not fit in... 

Because of isolation my social skills seem outdated and almost everything I say seem awkward and inappropriate...

I find myself standing there saying something to people and hearing myself making meaningless burr of aaa yyyy ooo uuu

Amount of coffee and chocolate (and I am actually allergic to chocolate) I eat is difficult to comprehend and I strongly believe my skin has changed color to a bit more chocolatish or lets admit it to a boring grayish shade.

And all those crazy sick things I dream... I could write a Sci-Fi book if I only remembered them longer than those few seconds after waking up.

Basically the moment my brain creates a thought that it was a crazy dream my memory about it is gone or back to apparently some part of my brain that for reasons probably of sanity I am not allowed to access unless I sleep.

Anyway... I have one more month of this craziness :)

quantum trouble

Nothing more precious than a cup of coffee on a days spend in the library. 

Especially when you have to struggle with tough stuff as an explanation of our existence, of an existence of our universe.

Anyway, during last lecture from Quantum Mechanics we heard depressing news. I cannot stop thinking about it.

When we look at the world classically we can make statements that it has zero energy, in Quantum world there is always some energy. 

Systems always oscillate at least a bit. So now if we have a space and even it seems empty then it will have infinite amount of those small energies. 

We also know that the general relativity implies that all the forms of energy gravitate, and if we have a infinite energy then we have infinite mass which leads to infinite gravity. 

And BOOM! 

If that was true then our universe would collapse in an instant.

This collapse is not a problem, because well it hasn't happened.

The problem is that I am studying a theory that we successfully use in everyday life (all modern technology was possible because we understood quantum mechanics). But yet same theory cannot completely explain why our universe is still around.

I might have got it all wrong, but it bothers me a lot.

Well next week will bring me probably something new to worry about, since our universe if full of mystery.

mysterious notebook

My advanced quantum mechanics notebook with notes from 2 weeks of lectures went missing.

I have checked everywhere at home and it is not there.

Yes, I have checked my backpack too.

Nothing.

Last night I gave up, went to bed. Had a lot of nightmares... just kidding.

In the morning I went to the library and asked if maybe I left it there.

My conversation with librarians:

L: "How big is your notebook?", "Like this?". Showing me address booklet.

Me: "No, it is bigger with notes from lectures."

L: "Like this?". L asked while showing me A4 format.

Me: "Well, I do not know. Maybe like this, or maybe smaller."

L: "Is your name on it?"

Me: ”Well, I do not really know. I do not remember."

L: "Do you know how it looks? Yellow, green ...”

Me: "Well, I really do not remember, but I know I’ve lost it. I do not know even where I could have left it, I've just thought maybe in the library?"

L: "So maybe you know when you lost it?"

Me: "I am not sure, maybe last week because I had it on last Wednesday during my lecture, but I do not really know."

Librarian makes a phone call.

L: "If we have found it we gave it to Information desk, go there and ask."

Me: "Yes, thank you."

I was walking away.

L: "But, do you remember at least what is written in your notebook, ha-ha."

Me: "Ha-ha, well this I actually think I do."

So, now I just have to go and have the same conversation with people at the Information desk.


Update: September 19th 2013

I still haven't found it but here is how it looks like. How could I have forgotten that it has periodic system on?
Anyway, it should be now way easier to find it.